Today was going to be the day I update on weeks 7 & 8 and I was going to introduce the chalkboard tracker. However, life has thrown me yet another curve ball.
Wednesday, Nick and I had a little scare that landed us in the doctor's office for an ultrasound. We definitely left with a little bit of an understanding about why the bleeding may be happening. Thankfully after that second incident Wednesday afternoon everything was great and seemed to be back on track.
My nightmare returned late Friday night. I went to the bathroom where I found more blood. The difference is it has not really stopped. Although it is not enough to fill a pad and it is not gushing, the sight makes me shutter each time. I have also been having slight cramping which comes and goes. I have dealt with cramps my whole life and I wouldn't even consider these to be close to period cramps which is a very good thing. The last thing that is happening, and quite frankly, freaking me the eff out are the clots.
So, as I was planning on sharing awesome news of weekly updates, instead I am sharing this news that just sucks. Nick and I are SERIOUSLY trying to remain optimistic since the last view of our little bean was amazing. Heartbeat strong and growing away. I keep trying to remind myself that this is my body dealing with that second sac. Not quite sure how to physically deal with it all so I have basically put myself on a modified bedrest until things calm down.
I have the most amazing husband who is making this horrible moment seem like a hiccup. He is waiting on me hand and foot and reminding me every minute how our baby is fine. I know I said this before but I am truly blessed to have such a strong and incredible person by my side.
Before I go because I am about to lose it for about the hundredth time today, I am asking that if you are reading this, to please say a prayer for us. That our little bean will continue to be a fighter with everything that is going on and in two weeks we will see he/she wiggling away.
Thank you.
Love,
Jess
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